Finding Happiness Exactly Where You Are

Hey beautiful souls ! 

Today I am going to talk about finding happiness exactly where you are.

I've always been the person when I wasn't happy I would look around and start blaming my surroundings for example when I moved to Miami at the end of 2019 from Vegas, I blamed the location, the people, the party scene, I kept comparing the apartment complex to my old one. I would pick apart everything. I kept moving around  trying to find the "perfect place" and the same happiness that I once felt before.

Recently I found myself in a little rough patch in Chicago, I got stressed out with starting my online training, I wasn't getting enough sleep, I wasn't working out hard enough and the scale started going up for what I thought was- no reason. I've been in a cut since April of this year, I was 185 and 29% body fat. I got all the way down to 21.5% and went up to 22+% because of the stress and lack of sleep etc. I felt stuck, and confused. I've been so strict with my diet for 7 months I found myself in a mindset of "well if the healthy food and strictness isn't doing anything then f*ck it, I'll just eat whatever' So I began stress eating and slacking off in the gym. It just made me feel worse. I haven’t been feeling like myself and struggled debating on talking about it on social media because of the all negative talk on my page since I've been back. 

I asked myself why did I feel so let down when the scale went up, why did it effect me so much, why was it my first instinct to start binging, why was there so much self doubt? I think a lot of it has to do with how quickly I dropped the weight, I was 185 and 3 months later 155 lbs, sometimes I still see myself as that version. Also I've been in a cut for 7 months, that's WAY too long! Also I gave myself a deadline on when I needed to lose all my fat which was 2% in 3-4 weeks I was on the way to that until the stress happened and I felt so pressured to move to social media and myself I can do it. I've recently stopped the dealine, and started to enjoy other foods that I like and stopped being so strict. 

Happiness isn't a location on the map; it’s a state of mind. You won't find contentment by hopping from place to place, expecting the external changes to fix your internal struggles. If you are continuously looking for something better, you'll never appreciate and enjoy what you have right now.

Before thinking of escaping or starting new, take some time to heal where you currently stand. Engage in some serious soul-searching. Understand that you have the power to be happy right where you are, with what you have.

Start by appreciating the beauty in your life right now. Embrace your challenges, and work on them instead of running away. Because happiness isn't waiting for you somewhere else, it's right there with you, waiting to be acknowledged and cherished.

So, let's promise to heal ourselves first, making sure we're not escaping but moving forward, carrying a lighter, happier heart with us, wherever we go. Your happiness is right where you are, not where you think it should be. 

Sending lots of love and positive vibes your way! 🌸

-Mdison